Ever dealt with that doctor who never trusted you unless you gave him solid proof of a certain symptom or condition with photographic evidence, reliable eyewitness statements in writing, and detailed documentation of where you were and what you were doing every second of every day?

Ok, maybe I’m exaggerating a bit (though not by much), but if you’re anything like me, at least one doctor comes to mind.

Now, have you ever dealt with a boyfriend/girlfriend/romantic partner who never trusted you unless you gave them solid proof of something through photographic evidence, reliable eyewitnesses statements in writing, and detailed documentation of where you were and what you were doing every second of every day?

Luckily, I’ve never had this problem myself (though, I’ve never have a serious boyfriend or girlfriend either) but I’ve heard plenty of horror stories from stressed girlfriends who were at their wits end. And I myself have had similar conversations with friends regarding similar situations with doctors.

So what do you do when a doctor doesn’t trust you? Do you give them what they want? Do you have a discussion to make your concerns known?

Or is it time to “break up” with them and find someone new?

(I apologize if this just seems like a bunch of scrambled thoughts. In hindsight, I probably shouldn’t be writing with this fibro fog…)

There’s one thing I hate worse than my symptoms, and that’s seeing my mom cry over my illness.

I’ve been sick for quite a while now. I’ve actually known about being sick for around 4 months, but I can easily see how the sickness could have started before then. I’ve never exactly been a healthy child, but my health really snowballed recently. Constant headaches, dizziness, loss of appetite, fatigue, insomnia, and the worst of all the evils, the muscle pain.

Some of you may have already guessed the diagnosis that was coming; fibromyalgia. I figured out that fibro could be a possibility around November, but my mom refused to believe it until I got an official diagnosis.

I can tell all of this illness stuff is stressing her out, and she feels bad when she can’t do anything to help me. I’ve recently realized that going to a normal high school has become nearly impossible. The current plan is to try Connections Academy, which is online school from home, but we’ll see. I really don’t want to drop out of high school, but honestly, I don’t know what’s going to happen.

My biggest wish is that my family, and my mom especially, would have my back with all of this. We’re all new to this, and I hope my family will be supportive. That’s probably the most helpful thing they can do.

On the bright side, maybe I’ll be able to update this neglected blog more often!

What you see here is the view outside my window. It’s so… white.

Merry Christmas, everyone. I hope you’re having a great day, and that you got the presents you wanted and such. Don’t expect an in-depth post here, considering the title is “Obligatory Christmas Post”. I’m not the biggest fan of Christmas. It just doesn’t feel that different than any other day to me. I mean, my family had mac and cheese for lunch and leftovers for supper. Yeah, real special day. Right.

On the bright side, there was a Doctor Who marathon today, so that kept my family occupied at least. And that’s never a bad thing. So, I spent the day watching various shows on Netflix, messing around on my Tumblr blog, staring out the window, listening to Coldplay songs on repeat and eating Pocky.

Hey, I guess it wasn’t a bad day, but it wasn’t exactly anything special.

If you were asked to spend a year living in a different location, where would you choose and why?

This probably isn’t the best thing to start my blog off with, but this prompt is really interesting so I couldn’t resist doing it. It’s also something I should probably be thinking about, since I’m going to college in a few years. (God, just the idea of that scares me!)

Now, if you asked me this question three months ago, I definitely would have said Japan. I’m sure a lot of people would agree with me too. Japan is a high-tech place with lots of new innovations, a unique culture, popular fashion, good food (or so I’ve been told); it actually sounds like a really cool place. And if I got the chance to go to two different places instead of just one, Japan would definitely be my second place.

As of late, though, I’ve really taken an interest in France, for multiple reasons actually. The main reason is my liking (obsession?) for a cartoon-turned-live-action kids’ show originating from France. Some of you may already know what I’m talking about, and if you do I already think you’re awesome. The show’s called Code Lyoko, and I have unbridled obsession for it, so being in the place where it started and getting to meet the actors in real life (especially Quentin Merabet and MĂ©lanie Tran!) would be a dream come true! I’m also kind of a closet architecture geek (oops now you all know), and France has got the Eiffel Tower, of course, as well as some other cool stuff. I might not learn too much (other than the language of course) but it would be really fun to go to a different country and experience a different culture. Maybe that would be a learning experience in itself.

There’s a lot of other places I’d to visit too; the UK, Greece, Rome, and Sweden among others. Maybe I’ll just have to make this a project for myself and maybe some friends one day.